I gave up on the pursuit of money a long time ago. In many ways I am not equipped to handle living in this world, and yet I have somehow miraculously made it to the ripe ole age of 37 human years. When I graduated from High school my intention was to run off with the Renaissance Faire and become a healer. Well, I made good on that promise, and spent about 10 years playing in the SCA (Society for Creative Anachronism) www.sca.org. This is basically a HUGE group of geeks dressed in garb, bowing to royalty, and doing what we called "living the dream." In many ways I was born in the right era, yet in many ways I belong in a simpler time. But I eventually accepted that I was too intense for this modern Renaissance, and allowed my character to be burned at the stake, which is what would have happened to me back then without a doubt.
So, the game was over.
A good friend of mine recently posted on my Facebook page... "How do you quit the circus? Where do you go from there?" This has since been my quandary. Not that SCA was actually a circus. It more felt like existing alongside this dimension in a traveling, morphing idyllic village, sort of like Mount Olympus, but not. My specialty is in searching for pockets of other worlds that are not THIS world. I would much prefer for magic to be real, and so I choose to believe in it. I want to find that special illusory break in the brick walls leading to Harry Potter land. And I keep believing one day I will find it. The truth is, what changes reality is when a group of people get together and decide to believe in something else. This is what I call Critical Mass.
My life all through my twenties was an adventure novel, to say the least. I often change my name to help myself believe I am finding my way through this illusion. My names are often descriptive. In the SCA I was The Faery Princess. And boy, did I wear that name well. My world was a novel of swords and sorcery complete with portals to the faery world, Alien abductions, "odd" weather patterns, rainbow halos and even demonic invasions.
If you look at my life in terms of achievement, I am a HUGE crazy ass looser. But as a writer, what counts as currency is experience, and in that, I am a millionaire. I could sit and write about my life for the next decade, and call it fiction just for the hell of it, cuz ultimately, who really believes in magic?!!! Yay me! Only someone named The Faery Princess for 8 to 10 years could really believe in magic, right? So then here's my assessment, perhaps one of the greatest lessons I could pass on to you at this moment before I really get into the nitty gritty of the matter...
What matters in life is not WHAT you Achieve, but HOW you lived it. Spiritually I have hit the jackpot!!! I will carry on the knowledge that I have overcome GREAT sorrowful odds to become a person who has laughed almost every single day since the day I was born. I have discovered the key to happiness. And in that, I am ready to reach a new level in my training as a self-master... or JEDI if you will.
I got this comment on my Facebook about this blog:
ReplyDeleteTracey Williams: I have found a portal in L.A. but it is not a positive one. It is a portal straight from hell AND it is scary as hell to boot! It is on the corner of Broadway & Workmen in Lincoln Heights. The core being an old Illuminati Bldg. called The Oddfellows. I suggest steering clear of that area completely. I stumbled across it innocently enough. I have in-fared photos of demons and the trapped dead. The files were verified by a 3X Pulitzer Prize Photographer who has sadly passed. I know I am to display these but I am at a loss as how to properly proceed. Whenever I send these images to others....99% I never hear from again. Or they insist they are fake and repetitively ask me "how did you do that?" When people doubt the existence of a Greater Power these pics shut them up Pronto! If you ever want to see them let me know. Just know that they are of an extremely negative nature. Magic does exist but it can be just as dangerous as delightful. Just like life. Love your Blog! Arrrrrrrrrr....
Ka-mander Dazzle: I'll talk a lot more about all that demonic shit in my blog... but keep in mind that Demons are holograms, and they cannot have any power over anyone unless we give it to them. They feed off fear and negativity. Yeah, send me the pics to my email. commanderdazzle@gmail.com I LOVE supernatural shit! LA does have lots of portals actually. I experienced them downtown a lot, and even watched people get possessed by them. I can safely say I have looked evil right in the eye, and again found that laughter is the weapon of choice.
ReplyDeleteKara MooneyI agree with Dazz...you get what you believe in. If you surround yourself with light, then that is your reality. Yes, we are at a battle with light and dark forces...especially now, when we are about to embark on a whole new human DNA species! Keep your vibration HIGH, and let go of FEAR as LOVE will always repel the dark. "In the darkest hour, I find my light to guide my way...as those who have embarked on my journey before me. So shall my LOVE remain" And so LOVE is all that is REAL...xoxoxoxoxoxo
ReplyDeleteNiall Tenzin Gyurme: For my fellow light beings that are struggling with what they Believe not to be the light, use the fllowing invocation to call the Highest light, KADIOSH, KADOISH, KADOISH, ADONAI TESHBAYOTH, this will invoke the non-physical presance of Metatron, Michael, and Emmanuel. If you need support in the physical, call on Me and I'll be there.
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